always.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

congrats to you on winning the Media's Choice award. =)

my birthday present completed.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

bbq night for birthdays!

went lab park for BBQ!

well i kind of organised it to celebrate zhizi's and my belated birthday as well as countdown for edmund's birthday which is 12th july.

went to buy food while it rained.

nice breeze, nice 7-seater car that fit us all just right!

nice food?

nice company.

had fun.

played heart-attack, failed-murderer, 12345, black jack.

this group though is kinda weird mixture,

dun reali noe how we can actualli mix n click oneday ..

but they are great people..

we arent the realli tok everything under the sun group but it's more of coming out to relax, laugh group. or shud i just say entertaining group.

prob its cos we are all from band.

we have sense of humours and common topics.

and i'm the youngest in the group.

I felt loved.

seriously, we all are growing old.

Monday, July 7, 2008

070708

tat's it.

Happy Birthday me.

end of day.

EMO.

i was handphoneless today cos i sent my phone for servicing today

dunno for wat though.

anyway.

went to makan curry today with classmates.

then to dessert time at swissotel.

some of them couldnt make it though.

but still great with the rest. esp closer ones.

pretty touched that one couldnt make it but toook the effort to go esprit get me a tee. lol

so sweeet.

sunday was celebration with family.

had steamboat..

which i planned to.

words are hard to be spoken.

actions are hard to be expressed.

i love them all.

pls pardon my super cocky look.

thats me when i'm at home.

thanks frens for all the wishes.

thanks for presents.

thanks for you. =)

Happy Birthday Me

Happy 22nd birthday Joelly.

I made myself count down till 12am and made wishes.

Importantly I want my family and friends to stay happy and healthy.

Seriously I'm very tired, need some sleep.

I'm feeling kind of weird though.

I dont really know why.

with having all the wishes i gotten, i just felt theres a hole in my bag of wishes.

issit the loneliness?

or issit just sth is amiss?

maybe the fact tat i have been celebrating 4 years of birthdays with him, including 1 before we got together.

prob this is the first brithday im back to myself again.

well, maybe it made me feel unimportant to anyone else already.

nvm, turning 22 today.

its a day i think I shud just realli realli be happy and kill the suayness away.

a day i shall start anew.

a day of ageing...

actually i dun realli wanna celebrate birthday especially this year. but nvm.
7th July 08 will be over in a flash.

the 21st year of my life wasnt a great one in terms of what had happened.
I've been thru some stuffs, minor n major changes that had me changed and grow to who i am now which i think its on the better side.
I've opened up alot.

will be going out today.
I hope will be great at least.

k, enuff of ranting.

I wanna thank all my friends who stayed up as near or as late as 12 midnight just to text or msn me a happy birthday seriously!

and of cos i demanded a few though. lol.

I'm off to sleep.

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[GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says:
i wont forget de
[GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says:
cos i put down as my reminder leh
[GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says:
in my phone
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
hahaha
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
kk
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
i appreciate it
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
kk
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
i close this window
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
i pretend nv happen
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
then
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
tmr u msg mi k
j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
*ciaoz*

[GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says:
HAHA
[GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says:
good nights

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
goodnight~ *birght smile*

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j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
21st year of my life isnt good
j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
so by counting down my 22nd one
j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
i hope magic appears
.:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] *i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ* glor says:
*sending MAGIC*
.:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] *i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ* glor says:
*sending 10%*
.:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] *i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ* glor says:
*send complete*
.:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] *i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ* glor says:
ur 22nd one wil b the start of the best yr in time no worries
.:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] *i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ* glor says:
lotsa magic is tat for miracle n happiness

Sunday, July 6, 2008

It is.. 9.30pm on 6th July 08

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
=)

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
happy birthday!

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
shit ass

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
wrong time

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
dun spoil my 22nd birthday

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
i know i know

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
i practicing for later can

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
-.-

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
i knew it

awhile later...

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
lol

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
she is rich

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
are u recieving from my share files

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
?!

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
wat thing

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
wat files

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
WAT FILES

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
erm

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
oops

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
wrong window

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
HOHOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOHOHOHO

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
........

DerekC - I am Derekered says:
=x

j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says:
stop ruining my 22nd birthday

present from above

yesterday i went to work the pm shift @ orchard.

was on the way to my dinner @ lucky plaza with lidy.

its was 7.15 and as usual the flockSS of birds up there just having a very lousy choir and guess what...

your fren here,
got a present from above..

Bird Shit.

*doop*
while i was talking to lidy and facing her while WALKING.
and it just drop on my sleeve that very moment.
i literally saw the thing just drop onto my shirt and felt the weight of it.
and with my tissue already there in my hand for dunno what reason.

i just smoothly clean it away.

maybe thats a lucky thing, not a suay thing yea?

maybe my luck changed from that very moment..
a gift from above.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

" hitting the "delete" key only serves to hide the existence of your "deleted" files, which will still remain in your computer's hard disk. "
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/
ive been reading this blog.
this girl has a lot of courage and she needs alot of courage to live on.
at her age, she lost her loved one who died in an army training...
you cant compare your pain with hers, neither can i

birthday

finally i went out today.

with my blood eye.
i caught lotsa attention.
i begged for lun's sunglass once i met her.
LOL.

went town for a walk.
managed to buy a sunglass.
phew.

but im so not use to wearing a sunglass.
esp with no direct sunlight shinning on me.
ppl wil give weird stares probably and thinking im poser of some superstar.
LOL.
wait till i SHOW THEM MY EYE RIGHT AT THEIR FACE.
you will beg mi to put it back on!

okie, enuff of nonsense.

lets say.
im suay another time for not being able to go to my planned birthday celebration place.
its totally full for the night. shitttttttttt.

went to the secret garden instead.
not bad.
though each year is getting meaningless n abit boring to celebrate birthdays.
but still .. i appreciate everyone's time n effort.
and the time tat we are able to catchup, gossip, complain, bla bla bla
i think its still worthwhile.

and the moment of lime light on me.
had a huge huge awkwardness over it cos they practically switched off the electricity outdoor.

and yes,
for my birthday cake and myself. *smile*

everybody, EVERYBODY.
looked at us can.
STARING.

u dunno how much i mumbled to god.
LOL.
and they played a weird song as my birthday song.

its like WOW.
Thank you everyone~
even the waiter who tops up the water for us every 5 minutes.
asking if we are done with food every half an hour or so.
^^

22 years old. ITS COMING!

God, i pray for luck,
bring my suayness away.

when the clock strikes 12 on 7th july.
WALA, i hope i become CINDERALLA.
^^

and MUN, i recieved your birthday card.
without fail i will have one each year.
tats very very heartwarming.
Thanks n HUGS !!!

and im glad for u, u did it well and you are coming back!
seeya sooonnnnn!!
meanwhile enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

pictures time!
and.. who will have the luck to take pictures with blood shot eye.
come on.
smile your fullest!

but i can only like. take shots with side waysss.
tats pretty sad.

my beutiful sunglasss. lol.

the birthday card i chose.ladies for the night. ^^

Cheers.

Friday, July 4, 2008

im quite happy for him to be in the top 8 citygas junior chef competition.

finals would be on 23rd july.

he said tats my birthday present.
cos primetime's gonna interview him 9th july.

well, have my luck with u.

^^

Thursday, July 3, 2008

i have been helplessly wasting time at home yest n today

my eye condition got better but still, blood doesnt wanna go away.
its BLOOD mind you.

i think i cant stay home for long.
depression might come knocking at my door.
i will start to think back lotsa stuff.

but phew. tmr im gg out.
with a SUNGLASS!
hai.

WHY god ..
oh WHY..

Thank you DEREK for the TAGBOARD!
Yes, im hell lazy to get one.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

i think ive been MIA-ing for a few months,
shud it be enuff alr?

prob.

birthday is realli round the corner.
and god gave mi my first birthday gift.

tats a blood vessel shot.
i woke up everyday seeing my eyes got worst.
its realli gonna scare ppl away even the dead seriously.

i cancelled the meetup today.
im gonna stay home today n tmr.

doctor just said it will take at least 2 weeks to heal.
the blood gonna spread all over my eye and i will be ugly for the time being.

MY BIRTHDAY.
how to take pictures.
hai.

ive even got tourists asking if i got heat in the eye or sth. =/

21st year have been reali reali not on my side.
maybe its a mid life crisis or sth.
ive learnt so much, changed, grow, expirience, been thru alot.

i would say 21st year is the worst year ever.

i hope when the clock strike 12 on 7th july.
life will be better and awesome!

recieved the first postcard from..
Kelly Services wishing me happy birthday.
its rather a surprise by the project executive whom i only gotten to see her only yesterday for the first time, on the phone for the first time yesterday as i need a replacement fr today.
and minutes later.i saw that postcard on my table.
how coincidental.

now i realised. i dun have the stamina to blog anymore.
dont know why.

life have been great my frens. not to worry.

and i think last week's 5 day @ sentosa helping out with an event was one of the tough but enjoyable days in my 21st year.

i knew so many friendly hotel staff who made my days there.

and of cos having frens and family caring for me is the best thing on earth now.

blog soon.


July 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Bituwin - template Dementee - image Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.	Wednesday, July 23, 2008 congrats to you on winning the Media's Choice award. =) my birthday present completed. 11:26 PM xoxo. Saturday, July 12, 2008 bbq night for birthdays! went lab park for BBQ! well i kind of organised it to celebrate zhizi's and my belated birthday as well as countdown for edmund's birthday which is 12th july. went to buy food while it rained. nice breeze, nice 7-seater car that fit us all just right! nice food? nice company. had fun. played heart-attack, failed-murderer, 12345, black jack. this group though is kinda weird mixture, dun reali noe how we can actualli mix n click oneday .. but they are great people.. we arent the realli tok everything under the sun group but it's more of coming out to relax, laugh group. or shud i just say entertaining group. prob its cos we are all from band. we have sense of humours and common topics. and i'm the youngest in the group. I felt loved. seriously, we all are growing old. 3:08 AM xoxo. Monday, July 7, 2008 070708 tat's it. Happy Birthday me. end of day. EMO. i was handphoneless today cos i sent my phone for servicing today dunno for wat though. anyway. went to makan curry today with classmates. then to dessert time at swissotel. some of them couldnt make it though. but still great with the rest. esp closer ones. pretty touched that one couldnt make it but toook the effort to go esprit get me a tee. lol so sweeet. ^^ sunday was celebration with family. had steamboat.. which i planned to. words are hard to be spoken. actions are hard to be expressed. i love them all. pls pardon my super cocky look. thats me when i'm at home. thanks frens for all the wishes. thanks for presents. thanks for you. =) 11:58 PM xoxo. Happy Birthday Me Happy 22nd birthday Joelly. I made myself count down till 12am and made wishes. Importantly I want my family and friends to stay happy and healthy. Seriously I'm very tired, need some sleep. I'm feeling kind of weird though. I dont really know why. with having all the wishes i gotten, i just felt theres a hole in my bag of wishes. issit the loneliness? or issit just sth is amiss? maybe the fact tat i have been celebrating 4 years of birthdays with him, including 1 before we got together. prob this is the first brithday im back to myself again. well, maybe it made me feel unimportant to anyone else already. nvm, turning 22 today. its a day i think I shud just realli realli be happy and kill the suayness away. a day i shall start anew. a day of ageing... actually i dun realli wanna celebrate birthday especially this year. but nvm. 7th July 08 will be over in a flash. the 21st year of my life wasnt a great one in terms of what had happened. I've been thru some stuffs, minor n major changes that had me changed and grow to who i am now which i think its on the better side. I've opened up alot. will be going out today. I hope will be great at least. k, enuff of ranting. I wanna thank all my friends who stayed up as near or as late as 12 midnight just to text or msn me a happy birthday seriously! and of cos i demanded a few though. lol. I'm off to sleep. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ [GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says: i wont forget de [GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says: cos i put down as my reminder leh [GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says: in my phone j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: hahaha j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: kk j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: i appreciate it j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: kk j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: i close this window j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: i pretend nv happen j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: then j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: tmr u msg mi k j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: ciaoz [GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says: HAHA [GX]- Anger turned into frustration. After a while, i felt like crying. says: good nights j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: goodnight~ birght smile -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: 21st year of my life isnt good j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: so by counting down my 22nd one j0elly - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: i hope magic appears .:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ glor says: sending MAGIC .:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ glor says: sending 10% .:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ glor says: send complete .:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ glor says: ur 22nd one wil b the start of the best yr in time no worries .:: Love Me ::. [,,,,] i ڸ٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ glor says: lotsa magic is tat for miracle n happiness 12:30 AM xoxo. Sunday, July 6, 2008 It is.. 9.30pm on 6th July 08 DerekC - I am Derekered says: =) DerekC - I am Derekered says: happy birthday! j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: shit ass j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: wrong time j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: dun spoil my 22nd birthday DerekC - I am Derekered says: i know i know DerekC - I am Derekered says: i practicing for later can j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: -.- j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: i knew it awhile later... DerekC - I am Derekered says: lol DerekC - I am Derekered says: she is rich DerekC - I am Derekered says: are u recieving from my share files j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: ?! j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: wat thing j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: wat files j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: WAT FILES DerekC - I am Derekered says: erm DerekC - I am Derekered says: oops DerekC - I am Derekered says: wrong window DerekC - I am Derekered says: HOHOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOHOHOHO j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: ........ DerekC - I am Derekered says: =x j0e - Its a subconjunctival hemorrhages for my birthday this year. says: stop ruining my 22nd birthday 9:29 PM xoxo. present from above yesterday i went to work the pm shift @ orchard. was on the way to my dinner @ lucky plaza with lidy. its was 7.15 and as usual the flockSS of birds up there just having a very lousy choir and guess what... your fren here, got a present from above.. Bird Shit. doop while i was talking to lidy and facing her while WALKING. and it just drop on my sleeve that very moment. i literally saw the thing just drop onto my shirt and felt the weight of it. and with my tissue already there in my hand for dunno what reason. i just smoothly clean it away. maybe thats a lucky thing, not a suay thing yea? maybe my luck changed from that very moment.. a gift from above. 4:55 PM xoxo. Saturday, July 5, 2008 " hitting the "delete" key only serves to hide the existence of your "deleted" files, which will still remain in your computer's hard disk. " http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/ ive been reading this blog. this girl has a lot of courage and she needs alot of courage to live on. at her age, she lost her loved one who died in an army training... you cant compare your pain with hers, neither can i 12:53 PM xoxo. birthday finally i went out today. with my blood eye. i caught lotsa attention. i begged for lun's sunglass once i met her. LOL. went town for a walk. managed to buy a sunglass. phew. but im so not use to wearing a sunglass. esp with no direct sunlight shinning on me. ppl wil give weird stares probably and thinking im poser of some superstar. LOL. wait till i SHOW THEM MY EYE RIGHT AT THEIR FACE. you will beg mi to put it back on! okie, enuff of nonsense. lets say. im suay another time for not being able to go to my planned birthday celebration place. its totally full for the night. shitttttttttt. went to the secret garden instead. not bad. though each year is getting meaningless n abit boring to celebrate birthdays. but still .. i appreciate everyone's time n effort. and the time tat we are able to catchup, gossip, complain, bla bla bla i think its still worthwhile. and the moment of lime light on me. had a huge huge awkwardness over it cos they practically switched off the electricity outdoor. and yes, for my birthday cake and myself. smile everybody, EVERYBODY. looked at us can. STARING. u dunno how much i mumbled to god. LOL. and they played a weird song as my birthday song. its like WOW. Thank you everyone~ even the waiter who tops up the water for us every 5 minutes. asking if we are done with food every half an hour or so. ^^ 22 years old. ITS COMING! God, i pray for luck, bring my suayness away. when the clock strikes 12 on 7th july. WALA, i hope i become CINDERALLA. ^^ and MUN, i recieved your birthday card. without fail i will have one each year. tats very very heartwarming. Thanks n HUGS !!! and im glad for u, u did it well and you are coming back! seeya sooonnnnn!! meanwhile enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! pictures time! and.. who will have the luck to take pictures with blood shot eye. come on. smile your fullest! but i can only like. take shots with side waysss. tats pretty sad. my beutiful sunglasss. lol. the birthday card i chose.ladies for the night. ^^ Cheers. 12:19 AM xoxo. Friday, July 4, 2008 im quite happy for him to be in the top 8 citygas junior chef competition. finals would be on 23rd july. he said tats my birthday present. cos primetime's gonna interview him 9th july. well, have my luck with u. ^^ 12:10 PM xoxo. Thursday, July 3, 2008 i have been helplessly wasting time at home yest n today my eye condition got better but still, blood doesnt wanna go away. its BLOOD mind you. i think i cant stay home for long. depression might come knocking at my door. i will start to think back lotsa stuff. but phew. tmr im gg out. with a SUNGLASS! hai. WHY god .. oh WHY.. Thank you DEREK for the TAGBOARD! Yes, im hell lazy to get one. 7:45 PM xoxo. Wednesday, July 2, 2008 i think ive been MIA-ing for a few months, shud it be enuff alr? prob. birthday is realli round the corner. and god gave mi my first birthday gift. tats a blood vessel shot. i woke up everyday seeing my eyes got worst. its realli gonna scare ppl away even the dead seriously. i cancelled the meetup today. im gonna stay home today n tmr. doctor just said it will take at least 2 weeks to heal. the blood gonna spread all over my eye and i will be ugly for the time being. MY BIRTHDAY. how to take pictures. hai. ive even got tourists asking if i got heat in the eye or sth. =/ 21st year have been reali reali not on my side. maybe its a mid life crisis or sth. ive learnt so much, changed, grow, expirience, been thru alot. i would say 21st year is the worst year ever. i hope when the clock strike 12 on 7th july. life will be better and awesome! recieved the first postcard from.. Kelly Services wishing me happy birthday. its rather a surprise by the project executive whom i only gotten to see her only yesterday for the first time, on the phone for the first time yesterday as i need a replacement fr today. and minutes later.i saw that postcard on my table. how coincidental. now i realised. i dun have the stamina to blog anymore. dont know why. life have been great my frens. not to worry. and i think last week's 5 day @ sentosa helping out with an event was one of the tough but enjoyable days in my 21st year. i knew so many friendly hotel staff who made my days there. and of cos having frens and family caring for me is the best thing on earth now. blog soon. 11:30 AM xoxo.